I miss my outdated job 🙁 I hit my month mark at my present job and it looks like I’m lacking an ex, which is wild.
It’s additional laborious as a result of my outdated job was a part of my identification. I labored in psychological well being and it felt so fulfilling, I felt like I used to be good at one thing *and* doing one thing good. But it surely was so, so exhausting and draining, and after a shopper died, I knew I couldn’t do that long run. It additionally didn’t pay effectively. I made a decision I’d take a break from it and take a look at a distinct path, and finally will work in psychological well being on the aspect.
So I began this new job, the place I don’t need to work with shoppers, nonetheless doing one thing comparatively useful for the neighborhood, however a lot much less fascinating. It pays a lot better and work life steadiness is healthier. I don’t take my work dwelling with me mentally.
However my group shouldn’t be very progressive, they don’t actually acknowledge psychological well being or social justice, and it’s not as culturally numerous as my final office. I’m additionally the one childless particular person there. Nevertheless, they’re all well mannered and good and if I ask for assist, they’re useful. I really feel like I can’t be myself as a lot on this office, so I’m extra quiet, which has made it more durable to click on with anybody.
I notice I had a unicorn office beforehand the place I labored primarily with girls, individuals of coloration, and LGBTQ coworkers, the place we felt valued and revered (aside from our pay) and had lots of open discussions about psychological well being as a result of it was a part of our work. I actually loved being with my coworkers and felt comparatively fast connection.
I’ve been staying related to my outdated coworkers and boss (we had been a distant group) however it simply makes me miss them extra. And as a lot as I miss them, I do know I don’t need to work for them, as a result of they don’t have any positions that aren’t shopper going through that I might do. And the pay was too low for the excessive workload.
So now I simply really feel…caught in some form of limbo. I don’t really feel like I’m looking for a lot good in my new job as a result of I’m caught lacking my outdated job and evaluating. I don’t really feel fascinating with out my outdated job. I’d wish to have extra issues to do outdoors my work, like hobbies, and now I even have time for that, however I don’t have motivation to do it but. I like associates who’re like “work is figure” however spending 40 hours per week doing one thing, I’m extra motivated by feeling related to my work.
Has anybody been in the same state of affairs? Does it get higher?